sick and tired

i am feeling pretty miserable right now. yesterday afternoon i started getting a sore throat and feeling very tired. last night i tossed and turned because i was so achy everywhere and couldn't get comfortable. this morning i felt stabs of pain all over, and my sore throat is back. i'm definitely coming down with some kind of virus. brett took stella over to my parents' house to nap her so i could rest and try to nap. this morning she couldn't understand why i was lying either on the couch or the bed and not playing with her. she leaned her head against the side of the mattress next to me and sucked her fingers. eventually i lifted her up and let her lie next to me while brett made us breakfast. i hope she doesn't get sick from me.

i've been lying here, listening to the wind howling outside. it has been weird being by myself. i have missed solitude. i love being with stella, but it is nice to have a break now and then.

whole30 has been tough. well, the last couple days were getting better, but now that i'm sick, i have no interest in eating a diet consisting mainly of meat and vegetables. i had toast this morning and a paleo lunch, but i'll probably be off whole30 for the weekend until i feel better. i'm not enjoying whole30 very much at all. i thought i would, but it is so much prep work and pre-planning that it's starting to drive me insane. it is especially hard with a toddler underfoot in the late afternoon when i'm trying to get dinner ready and i have to chop a million vegetables and other stuff. i don't know. i have to do some more thinking about how i can do it, or at the very least, increase my vegetable intake. i'm just kind of over it. and it's only day 6. anyway, i'm sick and miserable and everything seems bad and negative right now. probably not the best time to write a blog post, i guess. :)

on the positive side, brett has monday off because the markets are closed for mlk jr. day.